can't wait......

well.. it's thursday, almost the end of the week, gosh can't wait to go back. but as they say, never anticipate too much about one thing, just take them as they are.

hurmm just been given money to go back.. what should i do with it?? shopping? where? kl? kk? hurm what should i buy? a bag? a cheap bag? hahahaha... i totally don't know for now, i really need some new clothings, hurmm yeap.. it's not enough..

but then again i can use it for other things right? savings? hurmm i'll think about it...

my holliday is too short for me, and the works!!! OMG don't even get me started, there's a lot to be done. i mean a lot!!!!

it will never be like a true holidays anyway, just that i missed home so much, my pc at home, my games my books to read.. will a week be enough?? hopefully right??

last night there was a major event, my college where i live, went of a 'mercun' war with the college next to mine. it's was so cool!! firecrackers flying everywhere, even the pak guard suddenly went there, to take action.. hahahaha..

i went to sleep right after sahur, which means about 4.30 pm something, i'm starting to sleep late lately. i guess i think too much. about what? hurmm not sure. a case of human emotion suddenly bursting inside of me..

hurmm.. i try to contact .......... but ........ didn't reply, nor i can't call ......... but why? ...... phone broke?? guess that's the reason.....

hurmm i am scared about this, is this the right choice that i made? but what will happen?

but then again.. i'll just go with the flow and see what will happen..

wish me a safe journey back ok...

slmat hari raya everyone, duit raya for me??? thanks.....

i've been thinking.......

well i've been reading a lot of articles regarding how blogs should be written, and it seems that i still don't get what i should write for my articles, everything is all jumbled up, and mostly all of my entry are about my emotional status at the moment.... not that it invovle others, just that i don't have the heart to tell everyone that owh i'm in deep trouble right now.. and i need to be alone....

i completely greatful that all of them accept me as a friend, but i guess that just it.. the rest it's up to both party to keep a good relationship among them. and right now, me myself cannot escape from having such problems... thus making friendship hard to be defend....

well i guess people got their own ways in deciding their very own clan where they can rule anyone that they want to... hehehehe

your honest opinion. have i been an annoying person? the one that always got to everyone's nerves. and honestly does anyone know me that very much? so much that they can even tell more than 10 true things about me?

guess none of them know me that very well.. but at least i'm capable in making them happy for the moment.

what i really want today is, a lot of phone credit.. so that i can call someone in a long time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha having no credit on your phone is like, seeing a lollipop, but you can't taste it!!! ughhhh it's so annoying!!!!!!

a lot of sweet and sour candy...............

well to tell the truth this week, there's just too much things happen to me, a lot! a lot of assgnmnet still to be finish and friends that suddenly have a sour faces on them, got my mid-term result for human comm on monday, well i just manage to get a moderate marks, 70/100 well that's what you got when you don't put your heart and soul to it? is it? i did study but yep, my mind just dont help me during that time i guess, my temporary file didn't became what suppose to be a long term memory.. hahahah god.. help me!! totally don't know what would happen to during my final test later on...

the rest of the days just goes by as usual nothing really big happen to me, just that guess there bound to be some mis-communication between friends right, sometimes, i wonder, what are the criteria that a good friend should have?? urghh, i'm not trying to make matter so much worst but really i myself not a very completely good person, inside me there are still a negative persona that wanted to be let out, that i manage to took care.. but still they manage to slip out and yeap that's what you see in me,

last week though, i was told that i was just 'copy-pasting' for my assignment, which struck me so deep! i didn't manage to get hold of it and use my brain to sort the matter right, instead i got to with my feeling and got so low self-esteem......

what's the point of doing a blog when no one is reading it?? well i think i know the answer, i s not that i wanted everyone to read my blog, but i hope that by doing a blog, i can manage to let all my stress out in studying here, i guess i'm not that person who would like to share almost everything about me to some person that i know, i rather tell someone that i dont know about anything that bothers me..... although... opss.. some of you might know me right??? wahahaha... either way, i'm not writing to get you mad... sorry if what i've wrote made your mad or angry.. very very sorry...

pen merah, pen biru,
you marah?? i luv luv luv you!!!

hahahahahaha.. love you everyone.... chupzzzzzz

wei... next week!! going back!!!!!!!! wanna go home wit me???

it really bugs me.....

for one thing, i really don't like being assume to do something that i really haven't done, gosh when on earth did i did that... it's prejudice! i really did it by my self using my brain, and seems like some people just dont believe it.. but why? it's the second time he said the same thing to me... what else should i do to prove that i'm right all the way..

adding to that.. i guess i quite a scene.... it seems like like i have a few miscommunication with some of my friends... i guess i went overboard with the emotion that ran on me that time.. so dude, i'm apologizing for all the wrongs that i have done... bare with me.. i have my own times of up and down.......

some of the things he said is true though... but really, it's a group work.. and i did my parts the best that i can do... but seems like all that i do is bad! a total 'BAD'! what should i gain from this anyway, it put a bruise on my already bruise self-esteem...

what to do? should i just say, heck who cares anyway, it's not like everyone is perfect. but then again yeap. that's what you got when you become a lazy bum.........

can't believe it's almost 2 weeks in ramadhan.. only 2 weeks left to go..... yay! can't wait..... hehehehhehe...

i'm so annoyed.... ok gtg..... hehehe thanks a lot! daa~

living a month of pure humanity.....

well i've been fasting for about a week now, wow, it's so fast, can't wait to be back home, but then again, come to think of it.. i have a bigger problems that i will have to face later... i haven't bought my ticket back to kl yet.. gosh.. they say it will only be sold next week on the 15th..

i really don't understand why on earth is my stomach is aching this few days, i eat right i think, but i guess the food was too bad.. i really hate eating 'sahur' here, although there are many food but none of them fit me well, either it is too spicy or it's not that tasty,

of course this is my first time fasting in peninsular, and i think that i manage to get use of it quite good for now, although at first i never thought i would be able to fast until it's 7pm in the evening,

not to mention all the classes i have to attend, gosh!! time really not on my sides. as is i am running all the time, the weather? don't let me start, it's like whirlwind, sometimes it's hot and sometimes, so cold, especially on the early morning, why? i really don't know.

i think i am encountering what they call 'home sick syndrome' although it's not that alarming till now, i really don't know what will be happening next... la la la... hehehe

guess.. that's what we call being human, the feeling of loneliness, helplessness, and angst at the same time. although you may not try to make people noticed it. sometimes u can't help but to show it.

i think i will be catching a cold this few days to come.. either i hope it will not be that bad.... hopefully,

so many things i playing in my mind right now, i guess i dream too much? but really? is it a crime to dream? i think not right? to be hoping to get somthing that u really want for life... to feel your heart filled with what you like the most in life....

i love u!!! hahahahaha you know it right?? la la la la la la

people would say, how can you love someone when u never met them? is that wrong??? i think not.

i want to finish this fasting month as good as i can.

gimmie a lot of duit raya please, i want to buy a new phone... i can right?? hehehehe