early stages

i haven't been thinking about this lately but then it came to me, but it seems that people would do anything to get others attention eventhough it is somewhat lame.. as for me, i myself would be thinking the same thing, it bothers me sometimes that how can i be acting that way when seriously people just don't care?? hahahaha

i was trying so hard to be nice, smiling and all and still i felt incomplete. seriously i feel handicapped, unable to do something on my own, whether it is the fact that i don't know how to, or even i really don't have the guts to do it.. well i am trying. how can people get the confidence that they need when they know that they are unable to do it? wow. is this a sign? a sign of lacking a lot of self confidence.

somehow i think that what i write still helps me so much in telling myself that i can do it.. i must right? i should right? hehehe.....

as for me..

i know it is not that appropriate but i really need a distraction right now. somehow, it is getting hard for me to stay focus... i am afraid i carried myself too far in enjoying myself..

i do try as hard as i can be, but i don't know whether it is that important anyway, i am getting bored of it already.

it bugs me so much, that i havent grown myself yet, and for some reason i am stucked the way i am right now.

i wanted to evolve myself so that i can really get through with everyting, but then i couldn't do so.

i suddenly realize how far apart i am to some of the person beside me. so far that we attract each other.

ok i really don't get it what i wrote anyway.

thanks for reading. do please give some comment please...

seriously

seriously, i think that things would be much better if we tolerate with each other, i had a bad time in trying to do the same thing though.

what's meant to happen will surely happen right, there is no turning back and talking endlessly about it, but one thing for sure, i am hoping for the best for everyone so that the work can be shared with everyone else..

after a week back here and went to most of the introduction class on all the subjects, nothing else to say other than it is hard and needs a lot of time management that i think i will be lacking off if i will not change myself.

tskk, useless to say but yeap.

i am currently asking myself, how much is much, i felt in my situation right now, i am getting very grumpy easily, and it bugs me... well in no time i guess i will really need to control my emotion and not show it off, so then they would not see my true colors, du'uh as if i am so good right..

i wish all the best in doing all the works and hopefully everyone will be enjoying their parts in doing the things....