hello world.... hehehe.

it has been months since my entry on my blog..

haven't got the time to put my mind on a form of words... but yeap.. here i go...

it shocked how many people are using facebook right now... but it really happen.. guess people really got into what they call globalization, the world become smaller, and people can be connected on the tip of their finger... wow. fun.. even in my place. i can say almost 60-70 percent of the people are using facebook, ranging from 16-40++ years old.. i felt very odd about this, it seems that facebook is sweeping the nation. even i myself have to admit that i am a facebook freak.

facebook is addicting... everyone at any age really can find something to relate to this social network. guess facebook have their strength and all. what i got bored about what happening to my facebook, is that people are really spoken to their words out, and for me, my facebook are for fun and connecting with people who knows me.

i got so bored of reading all the so called comment that is so "informative" and all.. its just not me, hahahaha, i really don't get it why must they get so serious about all of this, everything is just fine for me... :D

btw i love u guys!!! cheers and stay connected to facebook :D.. stay cute!!!!

If i must say

Well to start things off, I am getting so much busy lately, with my club’s activity and all… omg, and what I hate the most is that, I’m starting to question myself. Am I being true to myself lately? I realized that I am starting to play a lot, distracted by time and the urges of getting an instant pleasure that suddenly when I realized it; it is too late for me to turn back.
Never intended to be like that, but I am the type of person who really like to be pleasing myself and after that, will ask himself, what is the point anyway? Still I have a lot of fun I must say.
Question, how far do you know me as a person? Did I relate to your life? Did I do something that could change the course of your life? Have I affected you somehow?
I have to say, after leaving Ranau, I have met with a lot of different people, that in my point of view are very colorful, so much so that each of them really bring something to the table. Sometimes it gets me so much, but most of the time, it was happiness when they are around.
Or maybe because they’re the one who changed me to become someone who is different from who I am before, a shy person who would only talk to his close netted friends. I love everyone! No matter where you guys are right now, you’re the best!!! Hehehe
I remembered a scene in Grey’s Anatomy, where it talks about, how people would grow up and would find their own sets of friends, their “tribe” the one who understands them, so much that they know and would love to share a bit of their hearts and would believe in whatever you’re doing. Have I found mine? That is the question, and my answer would be I guess I’m in the midst of searching. But I love them so much! Friendship comes and goes, and I am cherishing all of this moment right now. In the hope that they would be same also, let’s get together!

Friends, I am wishing all of you, a Happy Eid Mubarak, I love you guys!!!

if i could only smile...

i don't know if jealousy is something that is bad nor good..
dubbed as one of the deadly sins.. guess god created it for a reason.
i don't whether to label myself as one, but then again, i am admitting that i am one jealous person.. just don't know..

owh ya.. i forgot.. last night, was my meeting with all the old komed members.. come to think about it again. i quite suprise that i myself not that keen on being the YDP and stuff, although all the juniors are eager to be one.. hehehe good for the..

the funny thing is that.. i don't know, but they looked so rehearsed, that this one girl.. said.. something about... "tipu lah if they said that they don't one to be YPD" but then again, yeap u'll always will hear people using that words.. but its kinda bored... yeah it is true, but do you really have to say that? guess not right?

Oh gosh, does that counts as trashing other people? sorry dear it's just what i think and i don't think it is bad.. just that... it gets me sometimes...... and someone said again, i am so close with all my batch, the thing is we were in the different class, and if i could only be on the same class with them i would love to work with them... awww.. such sweet words..... but reality is so good to be true.. not all people would love to work with you,

even me myself.. i don't think that so many people would eager to be in the same group as i do.. guess what.. the world does not revolves on us... sometimes all the "i can do it, i would do better" just don't work when the whole world are against you...

so in advance i would love to say, i'm sorry if this thing that i said somehow made you feel angry.....

but i think, this is my way of saying to myself to be much more better and try to reevaluate myself to be much more better....

p/s, gosh.. would you believe it!! last month i just got a year older... 22 years old already.. hahahaha... lame... and i am still acting as if i am 17... hehehe.. guess you inner-self really stay young for a long time is it??

Been thinking a lot...

i know.. i have not been writing my blog for a long time, guess i was busy doing nothing and also have nothing to write, sending my apologies to anyone who read my blog for not updating it for so long.. btw, guess it all in the news that my campus was one of the first to be closed due to the infection of H1N1, so i went to Layang-Layang, located at kluang johore for the whole week. did nothing much therer. although i did some traveling to Batu Pahat and Johor Bahru... it was so much fun there. although yeap people would say, going to KL is much more fun... maybe.. haven't got the chance to stay there, although i have so many cousins living there... i manage to take some picture there, but mostly the picture is so OTT, that i think that people would laugh at it... hahaha including me... going such places did give me an insight in how people would be living and how culture do differ in places.....

thanks for letting me stay in your house radzi!! i do love you place so much... and if one time you could come to my place it would be fun i think... hehehe

what shocked me the most this week is the death of Allahyarhamah Yasmin Ahmad, one of the best director in malaysia as i may say. Life to has it end for everyone, and everyone have to accept it one day...

sometimes i do question about life, what is our real purpose to live, as a muslim of course we live in the hope that day after we died, we would have the real happiness from Allah S.W.T. but for me i think that, it is something more, we were given time here to find love, friends, enemies and it is neverending.... a life is like a long walk, where you will found everything in the road. but for what? it is inevitable...

take for instance, you are meeting with someone else, and then suddenly you disappeared, then would the person would be thinking about you? the same way as you would during your friendship time? some may but some not.

2 months of holiday is over...

gosh, going back there again.. yay.. what would be like this sem?

firstly, of course new coordinator maybe will be heading the program, will be waiting who would it be..

also, my 2nd ramadhan there, fasting about a month there, fun i hope... hoping to get back home during the syawal...

what i hate going back there is that, i have to endure a long journey, from the airport to malacca, that's so far..

btw friends, don't be suprised with what you would see the changes in me... i think i gained some weight again.. lol

ok till then, praying for a safe journey ahead and seeing all my friends there... :D

love you all!!!

thank you..

it really gets me.. sometimes i wonder what would i be doing later on. people are so eager to finish their study and the go the working sector.

is it bad for someone to be envious of people who already achieve what they wanted to, i mean for the to be working and having all the money that they can have. as for me, i think what bothers me the most is the fact that i still don't any planned future yet. everything so unclear to me. finishing this, i won't be able to immediately have job instead i have to fight for a place in the industry that i think very demanding. unlike me, most of my friends are choose the career that i think really would make their future so bright.

people sometimes question other people's choices in life, thinking that it would be better for them to do something else. everyone is trying to do something in their life that would be beneficial for them in the future, even if that means to put their personal interests aside.

is it wrong for people to do something more different from that? although yes for sure there would be so many problems that might happen, i'm the type of person who is maybe very shy but i don't think that people should question other people's choice right?

what i happen to realize that, when people done something fairly different, they would be talk across the town saying that its better for him/her to do something else. people would only be thinking about the money itself. yeap i do notice nowadays money becomes more very important, but i really hate that just because of that you have to take the easiest way to do things in life.

but really, who don't want money right. but life is not that easy. i learned from hardest and i think that people who got to what they are now is pretty much lucky. me on the other hand are not that lucky to be able to be workingi n the young age. but then again i think it require a lot of guts and passion to do such things.. and i hope that whatever i do, it would be something that i would really love to do.. hehehe..

starting my holiday....

yeah... holiday just started for me. almost a week at home. fun. and at the same time i don't know what to do. its going to be some short holiday when you think about it again. what bugging me is that, i got nothing to do. wanted so bad to buy something but then i don't have any money.

forbidden to work, i try as much to lessen my usage of money.

omg, i feeling so nervous when i think about what is my result for this sem going to be, is it going to be good? the chances are very low........ but yeap just keep a positive attitude right?

anyway, its good going back, and suddenly i saw so many changes going on, whether it is for the good or bad. so many thing happens... don't know what to expect later on.. till then.. bye. :D