i guess

if living can be easy like eating. surely life would be boring.

if living can be assume to be simple, then why do god create emotion just to bother us?

what is the prize for the winner again? is there any?

i think it is child's play. grow up people!

life as it happens to me

gotta say,



i did have fun during my week of holidays.. went to some places that i never been before and that is so totally new to me. seeing friends of a friends really opened my eyes that i never thought that i would make good friends with them.



btw, i went to johor during that week, sometimes it feels like home but then again i was really wishing that i could be on my own home. doing what i like the most. onlining of course (haha or people would say, no life)... i like it though..



totally been missing my dirty bed at home.. hahaha



right now i feel as if time really slowing down.. not that i don't have anything to do, it's just that i somehow really missing home right now... so much.. a total different from the last 2 sems i was here before. huh... and don't get me started wif the subjects and all... omg!!



if you asked me, what have i gain there at johore, what i would say is, there's a lot of places that caught my attention. i maybe a person who prefers to see all the people and would like to see their action, but then again people got so busy with their own life.

i manage to go to the beach during my days there, btw, it is like an hour to go there, and of course what i ride to go there was only a motorcycle.... hahahahaha fun though but at the same time i feel so in a dangerous position.. omg! the road was nice enough to be straight but what i'm afraid was the cars that was so fast...

got back to the campus on friday, and arriving here, i got so frustrated with so many things, a lot..... not only i was broke.. i'm emotionally unstable at that time. so true man, i guess that what's you get when you are a 'yes man' always saying yes to people when all you can say no to them just for once...

got in to a Photography camp on saturday till sunday (more likely a 24 hour camp)...... where i found it quite interesting and somehow feel so bored at some times.. hahahaha

learned a lot on how to use a DSLR camera, but no that very great photographer though.... that's the first time my whole class act as classmates...

btw, if you know me, am i a person who is hard to get close to?

hehe k dude. gtg.. daaa!~

holidays and works..

it is true that holiday may never be saparated...

god.. less than one week, and a lot of things to be done.. i dunno whether i'd be able to finish the works by then..

going to johore this holiday.. what is cool there anyway? anyone have any idea? hurmm lol.. guess i'm up to something that surely new to me... hohoho lets just wait and see whether johore have something to offer to me.. wanna see new things though...

already rented a camera for the whole sem, and some of my friends said it's so expansive.. talking that you could buy a lot of things with the money and all but the thing is, non of the are able to help me whenever i need help (though i never really wanted any help from them right now)....

been seeing people's blog lately, and they are an avid blogger i must say, always have something to write on.. hehe.. and here i am, stucked in writing things that became spikes in my head.

just opened my friendster today, got a lot of messages from my friends, hehehe thanks guys, i already sent you my reply, hoping that you would be reading them...

here's what is important to be this coming holiday:

1. individual assignment: a. graphic
b. PR
c. CTU

hope i could manage it before my holiday ends..

btw i was so eager on learning photography today, but then, suddenly the class got cancelled, man!!!! i was so annoyed....

people... get this, i'm a person who contains a lot of shy juices inside my body, so don't mistake me for being such an arrogant brat...

i'm trying hard to learn more about this blogging thingy.. and hoping that by the time i would be able to change anything that is related to this.. hahah lets hope so k.. so by then.. seeya!!

happy CNY everyone.....

the haunting tasks....

this sem of course would be a sem where, we are going to do a photography gallery, which of course a very hard task to do, my friends and of me, we are trying to make it as good as possible, well looking from the pasts, they done quite good works, and i don't know whether i would be able to give what the event would really want....

i made a deal with myself that i try to take some responsibility this sem, and i guess this event is one of my ways to get myself started. i totally don't know whether i'll be up to do those things, although i enjoy to have some responsibility.

the fact is, right now, i'm in the midst of not having the urges to read nor study, i kindda got lost in the way of learning... the subjects made me feel so unable to do, while the rest of my friends are getting so good on it.. gosh am i become lost here. again for the second time around, after failing your stpm? i trying so hard not to repeat it but then again, what am i suppose to do when all i do are not as higher no better then the rest?

adding to that... guess what, i'm admitting that i can't control spending my money. Omg... for what? i also don't know.. heheheh well nevermind then, time for me to go.. later guys!

happy i assume?

well been here for almost three weeks already...

assignments? well there's a lot already!!! and seems like, i totally don't have any idea in what to do this sem, wow! coming from a sort of good students, that's gotta be meaning something isn't it!! la la la... i totally don't know whether this would be the end for me..

i think i did something so bad this sem.. so bad, that i regret in doing that!! well, i always known for spending money for nothing, not that it's new to me.

either way, wanna learn more about anything this time, i'm trying to devote my free time in reading many books and yeap socializing, which is a very hard thing to do, unless you are someone who have friends everywhere!

i know it's gonna sound so last year but, yeap i just started watching what they call "gossip girls" and yeap, i have to admit it, it's addicting, seeing some spoiled chicks and brats. yeap.. it's all that a viewer eager to see. lol... guess that what teenagers and late teenagers would likely to watch anyways... hahahah right?

this year, i'm thinking of doing something that is so not me, trying to give something to people, love i assume? or what aeh?

cannot make my mind, what to do?

trying to get a lot of good pics for my assignmnet, and yeap. dunno when or where i could get one, usually right, people would say that, try to think in a different ways.. ok! i'll try.

i think i'm still not concentrating in my studying! so many things are playing in me.. friends can sometimes be very distracting.. OMG, and i am spending so much when i went out with them! a lot! hahahaha what to be changed?

really trying to depend on my own here, but sometimes really am bothering my pa and ma.... that's hard man! when you don't have any experiences in doing anything on your own... la la la la.... god bless!

gosh i totally need to plant my roots here. try to be more clear that i'm just some ordinary dude, who has nothing but the heart to spare.. lol!!! hahahaha ok then time for me to go.. will be updating real soon, hahaha for what anyway right!! it's not like people would be reading this over and over again!!

hahahaha later!! daaa~ thanks for reading btw!

result out already...

alas, the result is out, have to say, i did pretty well although yeap not as good as last sem, manage to get DL this sem also, but yeap.. again it's lower than last, 3.65..

i'm somewhat upset but yeap, what else to do, it's not like you can change it anymore, gosh, how come i only could get that high... some of my friends did pass me.. so guess i'm not that clever after all.. lol...

at some point my ego self is somewhat hurted but, my family did say, it is good enough.. why must you feel down..

what makes me feel that way is that i sometimes feel burden with people's expectation, the truth is i'm not that good when i'm in my school years.. people may never know that.

did i played too much last sem? i don't think so, i did do as good as i could but what the heck, the 2 subjects that i got B is so hard i think

this thus made me question myself, am i good enough to be a journalist? if i'm not good with writing then it must be hard for me to be writing something that people want to read right?

next sem might be challenging for me, gotta travel a lot and yeap doing a more difficult assignment... guess just have to wait and see then right??

so for everyone, congrats on your result...

p/s: i'm reminding myself to be greatful on what i achieved... :D

getting angry all of the sudden.......

to say the least, i never know what my heart wanted actually....

the thing is i kind of got lost somewhere when it comes to certain things, for what actually? i totally don't know, if to say that your jealous of someone, its so totally true but then again what would you gain by doing so? nothing... i mean, really, nothing... even if you feeling that, then not doing anything so what? lol, i think it is better for you to just leave it behind and just accept who you are. you are not someone who's a poser trying to be known by anyone, just as far in the internet world. adding friend is just a click of a mouse away, but really? its really hard to know the real persona of the person, just by viewing the pictures and then reading some of what they wrote may never get you the full view of the person at all.... so why on earth do you have to be feeling jealous at all.

at least in the real life you have friends who would likely to know you and then befriend or enemy to you.. lol

but guess for now, life is more complicated and people are racing go get more friends on the internet. and i must admit, being one is really hard, what are there for the race anyway, nothing..... but after thinking for a long time, who cares, no one gonna be asking you, how many friends do you have, even if they ask you, do all the friends that added you would be giving you any kind of warm messages when you truly need it.. in my case, i admit that it's hard for me to give comments to them, just because i'm not the person who would like to make the first move even with my friends....

god, please banish all kind of bad things that has in me.. just for the sake for the future, i really wanted the best for me, even if it's mean not so good to other people...