geez........

I have about 3 days left before going back to UiTM, I feel like I need another long holiday, but then again I’m so bored right now, not doing anything and I think its better for me to do something right? My mission when I got back there, to try and get a good result again, enjoy my life, making a lot more strings of friends, changing my persona and everything,

Will I be seeing the same people as last semester, can’t wait to see them, I missed buying food at the ‘Pasar Malam’ there, every Tuesdays and Thursdays every week, but then again usually I will only buy some water there, cakes and not forgetting the deliciously made fried mushroom, lol, kind of good though, it’s very addicting.

Even though I’m at Malacca, it’s sad because I haven’t gone anywhere there, guess I got to go somewhere there right? But will I have time there, this semester going to be more hectic, assignment going to be mo tougher and gosh, I am taking the thought of Mahathir for my co-curriculum, and it has a final for it.

Guess I have to wait and see right?

By the way, during my last week I manage to watch about 4 movies:

1: The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants
2: Fast Food Nation
3: Borat
4. Me and you and everyone we know

Ughhh….

Yeap, some may think that it’s a boring flick, but nope, as for me I liked it, I tend to watch something close to life rather that an action flick, although yep sometimes I need to watch action movie just to let the adrenalin rush again… hahaha

love the story Me and You and Everyone We Know, totally artistic... lol better watch it if u have the time!

i've been searching for a long time for 'eternal sunshine of the spotless mind' hurmm i think it's kind of a good movie right?

I recently downloaded Finding Nemo, haha yeap u heard me right, Finding Nemo, wahahaha… I love that movie, fish and sea hehehe, nice combination, feeling geeky? Opss I am! Urgghh a total goofball… la la la la don’t care anyway! Hehehe

Macam2 ne jadi ma sa, teruk ne, mana tidak telampau banyak befikir kan, wahahaha, napa d kunun macam tu, apa jga ko pikir ne oo-nan, haiya, bagus lagi ko buat keja owh, sem depan pown mo start da, hehehee… btw, have u ever think that u made a wrong decision?? Ntah la pla.. banyak kali sa pun inda taw ne… but one thing for sure, we win and lose something right??

Totally made someone mad today I think, though I don’t think I made it on purposely,, sorry for that.. guess something got into me! Hehee sorry! Is my apology acceptable?

Again, I’m very sorry.

BTW! X-Files movie is Out! watch it and tell Me okay!



Probably the best show on television on the 90’s and I love to watch it so much, I will glued in front of the tv just to watch it every week, but yes, after somewhat season the show become more complicated and because I missed a lot of episode after that I kind of not knowing what happen after that, but yes it is good to watch! Yeap yeap, better watch it!

so cruel........

gosh, really? for real? but why?

Hey, is it normal to feel envious of other? Just as they gleefully gliding freely towards their life, is life that real easy? How can people be facing a different way of life? What really bugs me is that, why sometimes we feel that we are overwhelmed and overpowered by others? We feel as if we are not that good compared to others, and seems like people would dislike you more, people talking on your back, and seems like you’ve lost all the persons that you put as friends, you seem to have disappeared from their life, as if you don’t even exist at all. People put their best play in hoping to gain something more from other, a sense of belonging. That is something that can’t be bought, but really? Do you think you got that? I sometimes feel myself as an introvert person someone who don’t really know how to mingle with people, because of the fright of ‘assumptions’, what do they think of me as a person? Am I bad? For some reason, I’ll find myself to have a very low self-esteem, as if the world giving me a lot of assumptions, which I found to be depowering me a lot, and to get off of it, I’ll try to smile, smile a lot, so that I won’t feel abandoned.

There’s one lecturer who said some true things about me, he said that I tend to take things to myself, I don’t like telling other my true problems, because I don’t feel safe, it’s hard for me to open out, and I guess that what will be my big problem in the future, I’m too afraid to get anyone in trouble, and I wanted to get over my problems all alone, but really, no one can even get through it all alone right? Guess I have to change, change for good sake of myself.

So what really bugs me right now?

Is it the jealousy? Why? I do have my own life to leave right, it’s different, you have to remember that you are not the same as other, god has created your path and it’s up to you on how do you want to tread it. The hardness of the reality is there for you to take and turn it all the way around.




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is it true??

hurmmm read this and gimmie ur opinion.... lol... is it true, got this from my friend... thankss......

What Afnansyah Agimin Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

i know now

guess i know now, why on earth i got B+ for my Lib102, it's because i kind of have a bad way of writing things, i always type without ever reading it back, which is really bad, looking by the mistakes that i made and didn't realized it. well so much mo thinking.... lol

what do you think when a person is avoiding you? i guess that only mean one thing right, either you bored them or you did something wrong, so totally wrong.

what else can be undone, when something happen like that, just gotta go with the flow.

today went out, and bought a magazine, Style: well.... i totally gonna read it.

btw just saw at the news on 8pm, guess sabahan were really kinda pissed off today, because someone just got the time to send one chained sms, which in returned making all the people got so freaked out and urgently went to get fuel for their cars. that's so totally bad!!!

Holidays..

gosh, did i really enjoyed my holidays? hurmm been staying at home for like a whole 1 and a half month already, well was is fun, being in holidays, from the other side of the coin I was so bored, but yeap, it totally good, not having all the stresses of doing the assignments sending them and the hectic daily life there for a while is so soothing, lol, everyday i woke up, it's as if i'm so energized, lol, hahahaha really?

Don't know what else to do, other than to cater on the house, doing the same chores day after that, but hey! its only for a month or so right, so cherish it!! owh i will surely, after not doing it for some time i guess it a way for me to enjoy my holiday...one thing i got when i went home is my extra weight, believe it or not, i gain back my pounds, oh why! not that i'm a weight freak, but i guess i've been dreaming to shed a few pounds, but really, who cares right? the fact that everyone it trying their best the make them visible in from of so many eyes really made me thinking, why? yet sometimes, i feel the urges to have that kind of moment, to be known and befriended by a lot of people, is that bad?well one thing for sure, it's totally gonna be a different environment next time. a total change from before, hopefully it's for the good. the subjects getting tougher, gosh hoping so much that my pointer will not drop drasticallyi'll update my blog when i know what else to write... (like anyone will read this right?? lol!!)

It's near,

my holidays is coming to an end, after two weeks, i be going back t0 study, my 2nd sem there, so many changes will happen, i totally hope it will never affect me, but one thing for sure, i'm not the total junior there! yay! can't wait to hear the junior experience next sem, mine was somewhat fun! i must say, although sometimes, i feel like its hell being there!



will it be the same this sem?? hurmm i wish it will, but i think it will be a lot harder, the subjects is a lot more harder, adding to that is this sem will have a fasting month!, gosh! and i'm i a totally different invironment! because at my place, the break of fasting is around 6.00pm and there it's around 7.00pm.. hopefully i can!!!! wahahahahaha..



hey, most of you must say this blog is soooo boring! because i don't even have any idea in what i'm writing, i'm not a person who has a full view on a topic, sometimes, when i see someones blog about politics and anything serious it occurs to me they're sometimes right, but most of the time, i think that the way observe things is just one side of the matter, try looking i a whole Point of view.



some of the people's blog that i read, really have the point of view of a adult, and they quite young from me, ermm do i need to grow up?! thinking the way old people should think, lol, sometimes i laugh at myself, how can you, a 21 year old person still acts like you somewhat teenagers, is that wrong anyway?



people do precieve that people who are a little bit older than them and acting like them is so wrong, i guess that is the price for growing old, responsibilities and people's expectation with certain age.



today i felt so boring, totally boring, i went to pekan ranau, but nothing fun there, but i met with my friend though, nice to meet her anyway...... we didn't talk that much because she's with the friends, but yeah i'll be meeting her anyway, because we in study at the same place....



by the way, i was watching channel [v] the other there, i heard this song by Asa 'fire on the mountain' it's kind of like wyclef style of singing, filled with blues and i feel in love the first time i heard it, well i dont know about you, whether you'll love it, but i love it, here! listen to it.






if you have any info about it, well tell me okay? really want to know more about her



here's her Myspace http://www.myspace.com/asaofficial



well ok.. continue later! see ya...............

something new....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O7ftozVc3lI

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wanted_%282008_film%29%22%3Ehttp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wanted_%282008_film%29

'Wanted'

OMG! just watch that trailer on youtube, looks like a good flick, angelina is so so feisty, she really can pull a super strong woman act, like in Tomb Rider, super HOT!!!!!! other casts Morgan Freeman, Sir James McAvoy to name a few. Will it be A hit??

Btw, today has been the same, exactly the same as yesterday, been playing the computer for the whole day! i'm becoming more Geek! lol... in due times, i will be wearing glasses (Hope Not!!!!) hurmm what else to do? maybe i should go out right?? but where? life has been like this for me, a total boring person, i can sense that people around me sure feel bored with me, guess better force me to go somewhere u're with me. all my friends said that its very hard to bring me along because i tend not to follow them unless they forced me to go with them or unless i really wanted to go.. hehehe, believe it or not, at Malacca i never went to anywhere, lol guess that was a waste of time right?? HEY Friends! don't forget to Force Me to go with you next time k?? lol...

i really dont have the mood to right something about my classmate there for now.. maybe in the next entry i'll think about writing about it okay..

i guess i can say that i really feel envious of others you know, the fact that they have a lot of connection in friendster, or myspace or anyway really bugs me, but really?do there really get in touch with everyone of them? i admit that i like to add people but then i'm not that keen of giving them comment, but i do reply any of comment that came, so if you became one of my friends, just leave me any comment msgs and i surely be replying them.

For real?

today i didn't do that much, stayed at home doing nothing at all other than watching tv, listening to music, well you must be thinking, God! he is really lazy! Go and do some work! hehehe whatever, i guess i'm not that good in working right? But I do like to have a lot of money! so that i can by anything that my heart desire.

But what is it with luxury that people seem to think that it is important for everyone to get. luxury and daily needs are two different things and people seems to be losing the line seperating them, people made the assumption that the more expansive stuff you buy the more it will be good, but for real? who on earth can afford to buy all of it, people who are really lucky will have the opportunity to buy some luxurious items easily while other work hard just to earn a living,

sometimes, i do feel a little bit envious with people who can bought anything that they want, especially all the teenagers who have their money to flaunt, but hey, it's not theirs' actually right, its their parent's money, and they are using it as if the generate all of it, of course i'm also one it, but yeah, my parents are just a moderate family, most of the income will be used to pay all the households bills, etc, including my studies, i'm the only one who is still studying and seems that i'm using money as if i'm drinking water, its seems to be flowing and fast. yeah, we can forget it easily but when i think about it, i have chills, i feel like i owe them big time, and to have a not so good grades i feel bad, as if i let them down. i want to get a decent job with this, and i am scared if i can't finish it, it going to be tough but i have to trade the road that i have taken, the road that stated to be walked by so many people, my age seems to be old to get a diploma but i guess this is what god has given me, the opportunity to deem myself for the failure of the past, i failed my STPM miserably and it has affected my life so much. i felt so down after that, my dad were like "that what you got when you don't study hard". really, when you don't like something surely you'll never get it done perfectly. guess i learned it the hard way right?? what's next?

in another story, well in about two weeks, i'll be leaving for school again, can't wait, hoping for the best again, please, please help me to get a grip of myself, don't let me fall for all the problems there! may i have the great time there, and a good lecturers, good point! okay!!!?? You Can do it.

P/S one of my first reader for this blog wanted me to tell more about the first impression when i came there the environment and the friends that i made, well sure, bare with me okay!!

1st blog..... word of a noobie...

well talk about being a noob, what am i suppose to talk then?? i really don't know whether i should write in english or malay, or a sabahan slang at all, i wanted all to be able to read some of what i would like to say, but i dont have the guts to right in malay or sabahan slang, i dont think that people would enjoy reading what i will write it here anyway right? well how about telling a little bit about me first right.

nick name: unan (pronounced oo-nan)
age: 21

currently studying at UiTM Malacca, taking Mass Communication there, some of you might be saying, God! he is 21 and just started taking diploma, well it's because of my laziness when i took my STPM that result in me getting a very very bad result then, guess that what you'll get when you dont have the heart to study or anything right?

started studying there on 23rd of december 2007, and finish my first semester on 11th may. well being there was somewhat fun because i met with a lot of different personas of people which i must say turned out to be in different shades of colors which painted my world. got to say, it's not that easy being out of your comfort zones at all. first day being there, i was like in a totally different place, being ousted, feeling of not belonging there, God! i really wanted to be home the first week i was there, it was so hectic, the schedule was so packed and i have no time to rest my head. especially on the MMS week. i totally hated it so much. i hated being screamed at that time, it's like i was a bunch animals!! gosh i have to remember that time. fortunately i manage to get over the first sem there, and i can't wait to be in the 2nd sem there!

i fortunately got a quite good result there, i owe it to all my lecturers there! thanks a lot!

i never thought in a million years to be able to take a diploma there, its because i failed my STPM and seems the world to be turning its back on me, i feel all the opportunity is closed on me, i feel that i'm a total loser of myself, i forced myself, i must take something to make myself better, i must be truth to myself, hey! you're going to be 21 this year! suppose you must have something around your waist that you can use in there future right! i told myself to be who you are there, and not forgetting the most important things that you suppose to do there that is to Study!!! hey please remind me if i forgot that okay!!

well i guess that's what i want to say right now, hopefully i will be writing some more things afterwards. thanks for reading and do please give any comment or any idea in what you wanted me to write.. thanks for reading!