For real?

today i didn't do that much, stayed at home doing nothing at all other than watching tv, listening to music, well you must be thinking, God! he is really lazy! Go and do some work! hehehe whatever, i guess i'm not that good in working right? But I do like to have a lot of money! so that i can by anything that my heart desire.

But what is it with luxury that people seem to think that it is important for everyone to get. luxury and daily needs are two different things and people seems to be losing the line seperating them, people made the assumption that the more expansive stuff you buy the more it will be good, but for real? who on earth can afford to buy all of it, people who are really lucky will have the opportunity to buy some luxurious items easily while other work hard just to earn a living,

sometimes, i do feel a little bit envious with people who can bought anything that they want, especially all the teenagers who have their money to flaunt, but hey, it's not theirs' actually right, its their parent's money, and they are using it as if the generate all of it, of course i'm also one it, but yeah, my parents are just a moderate family, most of the income will be used to pay all the households bills, etc, including my studies, i'm the only one who is still studying and seems that i'm using money as if i'm drinking water, its seems to be flowing and fast. yeah, we can forget it easily but when i think about it, i have chills, i feel like i owe them big time, and to have a not so good grades i feel bad, as if i let them down. i want to get a decent job with this, and i am scared if i can't finish it, it going to be tough but i have to trade the road that i have taken, the road that stated to be walked by so many people, my age seems to be old to get a diploma but i guess this is what god has given me, the opportunity to deem myself for the failure of the past, i failed my STPM miserably and it has affected my life so much. i felt so down after that, my dad were like "that what you got when you don't study hard". really, when you don't like something surely you'll never get it done perfectly. guess i learned it the hard way right?? what's next?

in another story, well in about two weeks, i'll be leaving for school again, can't wait, hoping for the best again, please, please help me to get a grip of myself, don't let me fall for all the problems there! may i have the great time there, and a good lecturers, good point! okay!!!?? You Can do it.

P/S one of my first reader for this blog wanted me to tell more about the first impression when i came there the environment and the friends that i made, well sure, bare with me okay!!