holidays ahead

wow been at home for about two weeks already. it's kinda slow here. i just don't know, i got so used to be so busy all week there and when i got the chance to get home, i somehow slowed myself down. munching on food all the times, playing internet and less work.. hehe

getting home really give me the chance to be thinking a lot and yeap i do realize that i am not that good either. i am just me, normal.. i have been fooled that i got so many things on my sides.

i hate the feeling that i am not that capable on doing something.

Currently appreciating all of the things that i got..

really missing all my buddies there, like seriously, 2 weeks is so slow and alone, haish at least, if i am not busy with anything, i can just go to them and laugh all the way..

i missed my friends.... haish so much.. :(

can i?

i was thinking more when i got back home, how things are more laid back here.

there was less stress and so many time for myself. i pampered myself that i kinda got lost on what i suppose to do.

been online for the whole lot of my day and surfing the for other things that i think not that important.

i got lost..

somehow i think i strain my brain so much thinking of things that weren't that important, i mean seriously, why would i be thinking that i should have something that other people have right?? that envy..

i have my own confidence level and i am happy with who i am right now.. and i can't seriously can't just leave my old self go and thinking on having what is uncertain to me right?

try to be thankful on what you already have, and make room for new experiences to come.

will it be?

wahh.. seriously, i will be staying at campus until Tuesday,

hurmm.. howdy had not been writing for a long time and still i am here..

i recently finished my part five course already and all seems not to be going on my way. why o why, its not like i played too much just that things are not going on my way and i really don't know why... seriously if i think again, i did all of it.. and still it hadn't change a bit and i am getting bored of it.

why are all of this thing happening, seriously if i did not do everything why can't i get it all.. shit... and when this happen people would presume that i didn't done it right.. well i am just human and i guess human are not that perfect either right..