Getting Older.

It seems that time flies by so quickly that you could not catch up with yourself. You somehow felt the differences and u can't adapt to it.

When there's too much free time, you feel that there is nothing to do and the truth is that u have the whole burden to yourself.

The thing that i am afraid is that i am someone who can't seem someone talking. this is because i am a little bit curious and yeap i would thinks that what they are saying is something about me. i really don't know why.

i got the feeling that people do think that i am not capable of doing anything that they would presume me of not doing my job the way is should be.. it is not the matter that i can do it or not. it is the matter of trust. i feel that sometimes i don't get any trust from the people surrounding me and thus making me feeling a bit down. is it so bad??

what must i do then? i am trying so hard to be hard on myself and not feel sorry about anything that may happen to me.

sometimes, i feel so small that i am not at par with other people. seems like they got something more that i have. what the heck is that feeling anyway right... haish.

i am getting all frustrated about this. wish that i could find myself a way to think differently.